Note for No Reason
Posted by: Mataachi on: August 11, 2007
I hate it that I cannot be with you.
I hate it that you made me fall in love with you.
I hate it that I let myself fall in love with you though I knew better.
I hate it that I cannot tell you that I love you.
I hate it that I know you are the one and I know that you know it too and you will never tell me either.
I hate it that I have settled for her and settling for her I have forced you to settle for him too.
I hate it that I’m the guy here and I know what I should do and you’re waiting for me to do it and I cannot because if I did, you would not want to be with me in the end.
I hate it that I know if I were with you I would never love you forever, I would get tired of you like I’m tired of her.
I hate it that I know that I’m so changeable.
I hate it that I know I can never change.
I hate it that I know that I’m going to break your heart.
I hate it that I know that even if I know I’m going to break your heart, I’m still going to go ahead and do it anyway.
I hate it that even if I do know all this, I do not hate myself.
4 Responses to "Note for No Reason"
August 15, 2007 at 7:31 pm
this one is depressing:(
all the hating, and settling and heart breaking in the making….sigh.
August 20, 2007 at 8:11 am
you should have called it “more than 10 things i hate about you”
August 29, 2007 at 5:26 am
Singing my life with these words… strumming my pain with your fingers, Poet.
August 12, 2007 at 11:02 am
Welcome back lad! You always seem so heartbroken though; has it ever gone well with you in the end, cuz sometime I really wish to read the words, or even the paraphrasing of them…”happilly everafter”. Godspeed next time!